Friday, February 24, 2006

Well, the beast of the wild will be led by a little child, and I'll be changed from this creature that I am...

Well the cardiovascular doc Dr. Ellison, just came in and let us know that they found a few things that they want to look in to. His red blood cell count is down and his platelette count is down. They are going to bring in a Hematologist for a consult, to see if there is anything they can do to get those up a bit. The hope is that will make him feel better. He said that this is a very big strain on his heart. He told dad that if everything continues to go okay, he will probably go home on Monday. Dad has been so pitiful today. I think that Dr. Ellison saw that today too.

I just feel exhausted. I can't really focus on anything and at the same time my mind is on everything. It is a little overwhelming really. I am trying to make sure I get all of my school work done correctly and on time. I am trying to study during the day at the hospital and then do the stuff I have to do on the computer when I get home. I am online at the hospital now, but the tests I have to do when I won't be interrupted. In talking to HM, I feel guilty a bit cause I can't really spend time with him like I would like to. He is very understanding, but I am very solitary in some of this. It is the only way I know to deal with it all. I can't afford to give in to letting someone else take care of me. I have to hold it together for my dad, for my family. It's hard to explain really.

My sister is really doing pretty good with all of this, I know she is sad, but so are we all.

2 comments:

Joan said...

Your Dad is lucky to have you. Dr. E. is great and will take good care of him.

CharlestonGirl said...

Thanks sweetie! Dr. E has been through a lot with us in the last 12 years. He is awesome. I love him. Thanks again for the kind words.