Sunday, March 26, 2006

Well, I'm Tired And So Weary

Just wanted to give yall an update. Daddy has been sleeping in the same position in his bed, since 2:30 yesterday. He hasn't moved at all. From about 4:30 - 5:30pm yesterday, he was talking in his room to people we couldn't see and he was a little restless, then he stopped moving completely and has been out ever since.
My brother said goodbye to him last night. I would not be surprised if he doesn't regain consciousness. I slept all night for the first time in quite awhile.
I know that I will probably always long to be daddy's little girl again. One of the things I am being made aware of is how much of the man he was is reflected in the woman I am. I pray I can do justice to his legacy.
As I sit here this morning listening to the buzz of the oxygen machine, I miss him already. I miss the sweet, gentle, charming, twinkle blue eyed man who made me laugh out loud and I even miss the cantankerous old bastard who cut me to the quick with a sharp comment or hateful remark....because he always realized later and apologized, usually teary-eyed.
I want to thank you Internet friends for all of your kind and supportive emails and comments. It is incredible to be a part of a global community. From this perspective it is easy to see all over the world we experience many of the same personal, day to day, joys and tragedies. I feel blessed and I am grateful. Please continue the prayers and good vibes all around. Many thanks.

4 comments:

Joan said...

Hang in there. It doesn't sound like his journey will take much longer. Let me know if you need anothing. Seriously. Joan

kathy said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad - prayers to you and your family as you go through this difficult time.

Paul said...

I empathize with you and I remember the feelings that I felt just prior to my mother's passing. Your words' veracity touch me deeply - to my soul. You are not alone. God bless!!

AMy said...

you know I'm here if you need me!!


xo